Rancour With Past

Loved you, hated you and finally made peace with you;
O Past, why did you torment my soul so much before realising its hue?
As I say this, I am falling into a deep moat of Introspection;
Society, family and friends – meeting everybody with rejection.
Wasted sources, untapped potential, missed opportunities and unwanted clout;
Estranged fellows who could have been friends-for-life otherwise without doubt!

Why did you keep my faculty on tenterhooks?
Not even falling once for its tender looks!!
Taking a deep sigh now as the curtains drew,
O Past, why did you torment my soul so much before realising its hue?


Felt burnt, flushed, bruised and jaded;
When hardship presented itself before me stark naked.
Standing my ground, I refused to budge an inch;
Just to show adversity that I am not the sorts who would flinch.
Staring into my eyes, it demanded absolute submission;
Remained unperturbed, I refused to abort my vision.
With just a ray of hope in heart and no divine harness,
I climbed on the mountain of litmus test devoid of tenderness.
Got several wounds in the process that time would not heal,
Almost gave myself away, losing self-confidence in the deal.
Would have been a dead meat but for a sane advice,
That lifted my spirits and invigorated life.

Though I fought back and feel a better man now,
One rancour still stays put in my heart that refuses to bow.
How come you didn’t get the square view?
O Past, why did you torment my soul so much before realizing its hue?!